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  • I was named after a rocket. Born exactly 100 years after the Eiffel Tower was completed . Whales terrify me. I love elephants. Famous for wearing scarves everyday if I'm famous at all. I've never been in love and am completely in love with everyone. I'm a REALLY happy person.

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Friday, 10 April 2009

  • How to: Feel Empty and Full at the Same Time

    You inspire poetry in my blood and I hate you for it
    For my words grow thicker and thicker with longing
    And upset my once mundane but steady flow
    My heart struggles to contain
    And finally drops to my stomach with this wait
    Wait.
    Wait.

    Blood racing to keep up with you
    The flash of your eyes
    Beats too quickly counting the number of times
    I've felt each I love you
    And I've felt each I love you
    And I'll feel each I love you
    And I love you
    And I love you

    And I swell and I drain
    With every pulsation
    My greatest fulfillment
    And ever aching desire
    Empty then
    Full then
    Empty then
    Full then...
    And I never know which came first
    And I'll never know which will come next
    And there's suddenly no distinction between these
    Which I was fooled into believing
    Had only their spectrum in common
    And would be kind enough to stay on either side

    My heart breaks
    Because you dare make it whole
    And I swell and I drain
    With each inspired pulsation
    You're my greatest fulfillment
    And my ever aching desire



    Ariane Powell
    Spring '09

Saturday, 27 December 2008

  • A song I've had in me that's ready to get out.

    “The egoic sense of self needs conflict because its sense of a separate identity gets strengthened in fighting against this or that, and in demonstrating that this is “me” and that is not “me”

    from Stillnes Speaks by Eckhart Tolle


    Lost Again

    I'm lost again
    Inside of my mind
    Lost again
    In the darkness of night
    I'm lost
    again
    And the tide won't pull me in
    So I just drift and wonder why
    These waves don't ever seem to end
    ...With
            no will to
                   Swim

    It's so not okay
    The way that I'm feeling
    It's so not okay
    These thoughts that are reeling
    I'm so not awake
    So let me keep dreaming
    Just let me escape
    These things that I've seen

    I know at times you're afraid
    That I'll too quickly go away
    But I'm not giving up this fight
    What is one more sleepless night?
    Even at my darkest, dear
    Know I can't stand to cause you tears
    Yes, I know how much you care
    And I'm not going
    Anywhere, I swear...
    (But sometimes I just don't want to breathe anymore)

    I'm lost again
    In the weight of my tears
    That have had no
    Escape through the years
    I'm lost
    Again
    In the way you've held my hand
    The way you've looked into my eyes
    The way you may never again...

    I know I have been afraid
    Of mistakes past and to be made
    However many tears I cry
    A tears destiny is to dry
    But you're in every breath I take
    So I try to push you away
    When the pain inside of me
    Is all I seem to
    be able to breathe
    So sometimes I just don't want to breathe anymore




    Oh you're in every breath I take
    So I try to push you away
    Though I want so for you to stay
    I can't trust you or anything
    I cannot trust my deepest thoughts
    When in this tempest I am tossed
    The waves are crashing all around
    I'm revived just to find I've drowned
      And when I've reached my highest high
      I find my fate to be a dive
      Into the familiar unknown
      Which claims itself to be my home
    And there I dwell longing for you
    For longing seems my only truth
    I'll hate you all for loving me!
    Why is it you don't let me BE!

    And this is all so not okay!
      Set me free!
    Cause everything I am
    Is everything I need
      
    In punishing myself
      For all I lack
    I'm throwing to the side
    Everything I have
         
    And it's so not okay
    It's so not okay
    It's so not okay
    To push myself away

    And give my body to this pain *


    i know at times you're afraid...
    that i'll too quickly go away
    but i'm not giving up this fight
    for i alone can make this right
    i know i have tried to leave
    thinking you will only leave me
    but here you've been right by my side
    drying all these tears i've cried

    but sometimes i just...

    sometimes i just....




    Breathe.









    Ariane Powell
    Winter '08
     

    *(note to author: same as "the way you never will again")


Tuesday, 19 August 2008

  • Super Wacky

      I just feel that the evenings events should be in some way recorded.  But I'm kinda tired so this may be short.  So, last night I was informed that we (Marmee (my grandmother), Shelby (my cousin), and I) would be going to Aransas Pass to visit my mother and stay with her for the night.  I wasn't terribly excited about this because we had just been down here, but, it would be my last trip down before school and probably for some time and really? What else did I have to do. 
      So I get to AP and really nothing terribly exciting happens...as usual...Mom and I took Shelby to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 and then we came home and I got on the computer.  So, I was going to leave my very close friend who I haven't seen in months and have missed terribly, Zach Schulte, a message on his wall on Facebook.  This is where, MUCH TO MY SURPRIZE!, I learned that he and his father were on a fishing trip in Rockport which is just 15 or 20 minutes from here!  And if that isn't enough, when I told him that I was in Aransas Pass, he informed me that he was staying at a motel in Aransas.  And if THAT isn't enough, it turns out that that motel IS RIGHT DOWN THE STREET FROM OUR HOUSE!!!
      I know!!!
      So, we spent the evening just driving around and I showed him where my mom works, and he fed me cheesecake, and I read a monologue he's looking at and a play his friend wrote, and a fine time was had by all!

Friday, 15 August 2008

  • i'm not sure i can write poetry anymore for a while.
    it's stopped being something i need to get out of me.
    maybe i'll start just writing blogs.
    i don't know.
    i'll be reading though.

Thursday, 14 August 2008

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